You are a stranger in my mind- roaming about with no substance of memory to hold you up.
Pedestals you once occupied- now torn down-
renovated into vacancies that will never be filled again.
Souls cascading into an ever flowing stream of
awkward encounters and empty relations.
The love- one that was once plentiful and felt by everyone now ice cold
frozen to the touch.
I don’t know whether I miss you or want to forget you completely
If I think about it hard enough,
my mind unlocks a memory a day/ like a twisted advent calendar.
Instead of sweet decadent chocolates-
I get mirages of pure happiness turned bitter by the sadness in my heart.
Your impact on my life- left like bootprints on freshly fallen snow,
But like all snow fall, more eventually trickle down from the sky
Covering up any and all comprehension of our ties.
It’s hard to think of how far we’ve fallen,
from the highest peak of our Ivory towers,
Now splattered on the ground- run over on the asphalt- gone forever.
You’ve become a ghost in my heart, a spirit that I so badly wish to resurrect but how can I?
Familiarity replaced with resentment,
Resentment in cahoots with constant misunderstanding,
Isn’t it easier to lock away the cookie cutter ideals of starting over than to
endure moments of Deja Vu?
Who are you?